I woke yesterday morning with this scripture swirling around in my head:
Isaiah 40:31, " But they that wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall WALK, and not FAINT."
God totally allowed this scripture to rise up within me yesterday as I was getting myself going for the day. Side note: it pays to hide God's Word in your heart, when you don't have time to pick up a Bible and read it at that moment :-). All of you who know this journey we have been on know that I am coming up on the 4 month mark of being off of all ms medications this Saturday! Chad and I are continuing to stand and believe that God's Word is true and will not return void in this area of our lives. I am healed of ms! Not symptom free and feeling amazing but healed, because God calls me healed. He has promised this to me and He is no respecter of persons ( Romans 2:11). Meaning, if He can and will heal one, He can and will heal me.
So with that in mind, the Holy Spirit was encouraging me with the above scripture. These symptoms are no fun. I'm exhausted all the time, I am tingling all over, my legs are weak and painful and sometimes, I am so dizzy, I feel like I can hardly stand up. With all that said, I am still functional on my own most days and can take care of my home, my husband and my boys, so Praise God!
Back to the Word...you all know we have been waiting on the Lord for so much and as we are He is renewing our strength literally everyday to be able to accomplish what I am accomplishing every day. Not gonna lie, I don't feel like I can soar quite like an eagle everyday, but there are some days where there used to be none.
I used to run, actually 3 miles everyday until November of last year and since then I can barely take a walk down the street...driving me crazy, yes, because I love to work out! I am believing that one day soon I will be able to run again, like this scripture says, and not grow weary.
For now though, I am mostly encouraged by the part that says, " and they shall WALK, and not FAINT." Literally speaking LOL! I am happy to be able to literally walk and not faint everyday!
God's Word is so amazing how alive and active it can be. When we allow it to be alive and active. We have to keep hiding it in our hearts and keep it always before us. I am seriously only making it through this journey because of this.
All of us are on a journey, all of us need the Word of God to " be a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path" ( Psalm 119:105)
He is faithful, His Word will never return void in our lives and He is a loving and amazing God. Believe it today and then start over tomorrow until it's all you know!
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Authority and Miracles
These are the two words that keep whirling around in my head after an amazing worship night at our church last night.
First, let me start by explaining how yesterday was. I did ask all of you to pray and as I explain just keep reading and you will see how God used you. I started the morning barely being able to move or breathe. It actually felt like I was having some kind of ms flare up. I felt horrible...I mean worse than I have felt since before I was back on the benzo drug. It was laughable, really, ridiculous. Of course, it was the day of ETS (Engage the Spirit) our worship night at our church at which I was going to sing for the first time in a year. I don't know why I was surprised to wake up in that state given what God was planning to do last night, but I was. It was a really hard day.
Got to rehearsal and the whole time, my body just kept getting worse and worse. I was literally holding my breathe to sing and by the time we were done, I was in melt down mode, just out of complete frustration. I was seriously having a conversation with God saying, " I am getting on that stage God. You told me to do this, so I guess if I pass out it will be all your fault and you can take the blame!" I know, I'm surprised He didn't strike me down right there! Lol! I was frustrated because I was wanting God to make it easy. I should have been taking authority over the enemy and not acting like a teenage girl that's arguing with her dad, real mature, right. I pulled Chad aside and asked him to pray for me before the service started.
The first part of the night we had a pastor within our network who operates in a prophetic gifting. He is so meek and humble and highly anointed and brought a powerful, timely word regarding the midnight hour. How do we make it through our dark times etc. To much to really say here, anyway, I sat on the front row and literally cried the entire time! So, when he was wrapping it up I went in the back to get myself together and get ready to get on the stage.
We got on the stage and the first song out of the gate was one I was co-leading with one of our other leaders and the anointing fell right then and for the rest of the night I sat on that stool and sang with such power and authority like I have never felt before in my life while singing! God came through for me...SURPRISE! I don't know why I ever doubted it. It was a powerful night.
So back to those words, authority and power. I am started to really study the Word regarding the authority that we carry and that God has given us. I haven't even begun to scratch the surface.
Romans 13:1, " Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God."
I believe that the new authority on my life is due to first, the grace and love of God and secondly, the fact that I have chosen to intentionally submit myself to Him as my ultimate governing authority. I am so honored to operate in this authority and pray that God continues to allow me to. I can't wait to see how God uses everything that we have been going through and am glad that He is still using me despite my weakness.
He has never left me or forsaken me. Last night was a miracle and I am living today knowing that there is more authority and miracles to come!
First, let me start by explaining how yesterday was. I did ask all of you to pray and as I explain just keep reading and you will see how God used you. I started the morning barely being able to move or breathe. It actually felt like I was having some kind of ms flare up. I felt horrible...I mean worse than I have felt since before I was back on the benzo drug. It was laughable, really, ridiculous. Of course, it was the day of ETS (Engage the Spirit) our worship night at our church at which I was going to sing for the first time in a year. I don't know why I was surprised to wake up in that state given what God was planning to do last night, but I was. It was a really hard day.
Got to rehearsal and the whole time, my body just kept getting worse and worse. I was literally holding my breathe to sing and by the time we were done, I was in melt down mode, just out of complete frustration. I was seriously having a conversation with God saying, " I am getting on that stage God. You told me to do this, so I guess if I pass out it will be all your fault and you can take the blame!" I know, I'm surprised He didn't strike me down right there! Lol! I was frustrated because I was wanting God to make it easy. I should have been taking authority over the enemy and not acting like a teenage girl that's arguing with her dad, real mature, right. I pulled Chad aside and asked him to pray for me before the service started.
The first part of the night we had a pastor within our network who operates in a prophetic gifting. He is so meek and humble and highly anointed and brought a powerful, timely word regarding the midnight hour. How do we make it through our dark times etc. To much to really say here, anyway, I sat on the front row and literally cried the entire time! So, when he was wrapping it up I went in the back to get myself together and get ready to get on the stage.
We got on the stage and the first song out of the gate was one I was co-leading with one of our other leaders and the anointing fell right then and for the rest of the night I sat on that stool and sang with such power and authority like I have never felt before in my life while singing! God came through for me...SURPRISE! I don't know why I ever doubted it. It was a powerful night.
So back to those words, authority and power. I am started to really study the Word regarding the authority that we carry and that God has given us. I haven't even begun to scratch the surface.
Romans 13:1, " Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God."
I believe that the new authority on my life is due to first, the grace and love of God and secondly, the fact that I have chosen to intentionally submit myself to Him as my ultimate governing authority. I am so honored to operate in this authority and pray that God continues to allow me to. I can't wait to see how God uses everything that we have been going through and am glad that He is still using me despite my weakness.
He has never left me or forsaken me. Last night was a miracle and I am living today knowing that there is more authority and miracles to come!
Monday, November 12, 2012
I can predict the future...
You heard me right. I can predict the future. I have this secret weapon, it's called the Word of God. It tells me everything that was, that is and that will be. It's the most powerful weapon I have ever had in my possession.
This week marks 3 1/2 months of being off of all ms medications. Let's just give God glory now! Am I completely symptom free? Absolutely....NOT! Lol! Yes, I can laugh, because that weapon I own tells me that I will be free.
Every time I open the Word over the last few weeks, I keep going back to Romans 5. There is something that God is trying to get through this thick skull of mine apparently. But today, I can't even get past the first 2 verses, " Therefore, since we have been justified (qualified) through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace (favor) in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God."
Yeah, exactly, so much freedom and truth in those two verses. So much that if we really understand them we can live a victorious, amazing day. We are qualified through the faith that we have in Jesus and therefore have obtained the grace (favor) with God Almighty, that helps us survive every day. And we rejoice in the hope that God's glory will be made known through us!
I was asked this past week how do I experience God and the first thing that rolled off my lips was by opening the Word of God. When I open the Word, it doesn't matter how I feel, if my boys are running around being crazy, the house is a mess etc...Jesus comes to life right then to me. Experiencing God used to just be about a feeling for me, but it hasn't been that way for quite some time.
Then I was asked what happens when I experience Jesus. And again, the first thing that flowed from my mouth, without even having to think, was that Jesus comes to life and therefore all of His promises come to life and it completely erases any fear and doubt that I may have woken up with that day. I live each day in freedom because of this. At least for now, freedom in my mind, gradually in my body.
This week, I have been given the opportunity to sing at our worship night. God told me to be there and available, so I am doing it completely out of faith. For those of you who know this journey, this is quite a big moment for me and a miracle for me to be able to step on the stage. I don't like to be needy...but I need all of you praying for me this week! I have no agenda other than His so I know that He will be there in the moment. Just have to keep my mind out of trouble and all of you backing me up helps big time with that :-)
Okay, are you ready? I am gonna predict our future right now...Jeremiah 29:11, " For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
If you haven't spoken the Word over your life yet today, STOP whatever you are doing and run to it. There's nothing more important!
This week marks 3 1/2 months of being off of all ms medications. Let's just give God glory now! Am I completely symptom free? Absolutely....NOT! Lol! Yes, I can laugh, because that weapon I own tells me that I will be free.
Every time I open the Word over the last few weeks, I keep going back to Romans 5. There is something that God is trying to get through this thick skull of mine apparently. But today, I can't even get past the first 2 verses, " Therefore, since we have been justified (qualified) through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace (favor) in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God."
Yeah, exactly, so much freedom and truth in those two verses. So much that if we really understand them we can live a victorious, amazing day. We are qualified through the faith that we have in Jesus and therefore have obtained the grace (favor) with God Almighty, that helps us survive every day. And we rejoice in the hope that God's glory will be made known through us!
I was asked this past week how do I experience God and the first thing that rolled off my lips was by opening the Word of God. When I open the Word, it doesn't matter how I feel, if my boys are running around being crazy, the house is a mess etc...Jesus comes to life right then to me. Experiencing God used to just be about a feeling for me, but it hasn't been that way for quite some time.
Then I was asked what happens when I experience Jesus. And again, the first thing that flowed from my mouth, without even having to think, was that Jesus comes to life and therefore all of His promises come to life and it completely erases any fear and doubt that I may have woken up with that day. I live each day in freedom because of this. At least for now, freedom in my mind, gradually in my body.
This week, I have been given the opportunity to sing at our worship night. God told me to be there and available, so I am doing it completely out of faith. For those of you who know this journey, this is quite a big moment for me and a miracle for me to be able to step on the stage. I don't like to be needy...but I need all of you praying for me this week! I have no agenda other than His so I know that He will be there in the moment. Just have to keep my mind out of trouble and all of you backing me up helps big time with that :-)
Okay, are you ready? I am gonna predict our future right now...Jeremiah 29:11, " For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
If you haven't spoken the Word over your life yet today, STOP whatever you are doing and run to it. There's nothing more important!
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