Nothing

John 15:5, " I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do NOTHING."

This is not the first time this theme has run through my mind and spirit but on Sunday morning during worship I couldn't get it out of my head. These days, I realize more and more that my life is not my own, that I am on borrowed time, that apart from Jesus and His miraculous power I am nothing. I can't do anything in my own strength, seriously.

The best part is that I can say with true, pure motivation from the very depths of me that I am 100% okay with this! Nothing means something that is nonexistent. To be honest, what's the point of existing without Him? That's called survival in my dictionary and survival is all about us and it's not a fun place to be or a fruitful place to be. Don't you want to make a difference in the world? Don't you want to have purpose in your life? Don't you want the hell and the struggle that you are walking through to not be in vain? The answer to all of those questions for me is a big YES.

So yes, I am okay with being nothing. I have gotten to the point in my life where even if I have the choice to do something in my own strength, I just don't want to. And I love that I am there. Sure I have an agenda, sure I have things that I would like to do. But everyday I submit to Him, those things fall into place and perfect peace comes with it.

I am watching God answer so many of my questions. I am watching God give me the desires of my heart as I have been delighting in Him (Psalm 37:4). These are things I have been praying about and waiting on Him for. And for a long time, I might add. The more I am nothing, the more He can be something!

The doors that are opening are so big that not even my buff self can open them on my own ;-) I mean really, it gives me full confidence that it is totally Him. And therefore I can trust those doors and walk right on through with confidence and strength knowing that God is with me every step of the way.

I cannot even tell you how excited I am. 10 months off of all ms medications and going strong. People, God is amazing, to say the least. So, my advice, try being nothing for a day and see where it gets you.