A Week of Weeping

I have been waiting for the Holy Spirit to allow me to write this week. And now all of the sudden in my exhausted state, yet grateful state, and sorrow that has finally been allowed to flow after standing strong as long as possible, He allows me to.

This morning I had the absolute honor of singing and celebrating a sweet, amazing woman of God who was taken from this world way to early. Leaving behind a mom, a dad, a sister and brother-in-law and many others I'm sure I will never know. Yes, a plot of the enemy no doubt, but God still getting the glory for it. It was powerful, sad, tragic...the list could go on, but ultimately, she was celebrated and God got all the glory.

Tomorrow, I get the incredible honor of singing and celebrating an amazing man of God, that was also taken way before his time. Leaving behind a beautiful wife and 6 amazing children. Another plot of the enemy, not in the order of what the Word of God and the promises that He has laid out for us. Tragic in it's own way. Yet, God will get all the glory for his life as well tomorrow and for days to come, I have no doubt.

There has been such an opportunity to live under such a banner of death and oppression this week. Not just from the two amazing people that I speak of in this blog but even more that are within my spiritual family, who are suffering great loss on this earth.  It's funny how the enemy thinks he has won by destroying our flesh. Yes it's so sad to lose those we love, but for the believer, we are here one second and then with Jesus the next when our flesh is done and because of our relationship with Jesus, our legacy lives on and He continues to get all the glory. No victory for the enemy if we have the right perspective.

Before these last two years, I didn't ever really show my emotion. I am an introvert when it comes to that...I know, you're like, " whatever, yeah right". But those of you who know me, know this to be the truth. But God, in His process with me, has broken me so deeply, where that has changed for the betterment of me and for the advancing of His Kingdom. What's awesome is that it's not my flesh crying out, it's the Spirit of God, who is so active and alive in me, crying out for His people. He has given me the privilege of feeling His heart in certain situations. An honor yes, no doubt. The most painful thing I could ever feel emotionally yes, no doubt.

Romans 8:26, " In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans."

It's hard to know what to pray, when no words seem right. I've always thought myself weak in that broken down state, but the Word says that even Jesus, Himself has wordless groans. When I am weeping and groaning, it's wordless, I'll tell you that much. I am weak, but being connected and submitted to His Spirit makes me sensitive to His heart and what He cares about making me stronger and more effective in His Kingdom. 

This, my friends, only comes by us dying to ourselves and allowing the Holy Spirit to work in us. We have to get out of the way so that He can be the WAY. I can't help but believe that the enemy wouldn't have the ability to cause such destruction if we all strive to live this way, sensitized to Him. 

We will all face death. Fact. But, I believe it's for God to determine the how, the what, the when, not this world. Although we live in a fallen world, we have authority over this world the Word says. SO LET'S WALK THAT WAY! Let's be righteously angered when God's people are taken before their time. That's what makes us move and aware that we do not fight against flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:12). That's our reality as believers. We are spirit beings, we are not of this world and never will be. I sure don't want to be. I know you don't either. Let's walk it out together, let's rally and take authority where authority has been given and keep the victory that our loving and faithful Jesus has paid an amazing price for.