It's been a couple of weeks since I have been able to to blog. Not because of time, just because of God's timing. I don't want to write just to write. I want to write when the Holy Spirit says to and today is one of those days. I finally have been released to share something that has really been speaking to me lately.
I brought up Mario Brothers for a reason. When we play with Parker, a lot of the time, we are jumping around like the three stooges and somebody's life always gets sacrificed for someone else to keep moving forward. Usually, because Parker likes to keep moving, it's him doing all the sacrificing! I know I shouldn't laugh, but it's quite funny to us! But on occasion, Chad and I take the hit so that Parker can keep moving forward. We lay down our mushroom headed lives to protect his and every time we do that, he notices and is so thankful!
I had a thought regarding a very familiar scripture. John 15:13, " Greater love has no one than this that he lay down his life for his friends." We always look at these words that were spoken by Jesus and we think of how He laid down His life for us on the cross and that there could absolutely be no greater love than this. And I believe that with all of my heart. But what if we flipped it? What if we are showing our love for Jesus, as He is our friend, by laying down OUR lives for Him? There is no greater love than this. Taking up our cross daily, dying to ourselves daily to follow Him is the greatest love we could show our amazing God.
That's where I am right now. I have completely died to all of my dreams, desires, attitudes, you name it, I've died to it. I want Jesus to completely re-create me from the inside out. That's what this whole journey has been about for me. I am just finally broken down enough to allow Him to really do what he wants with no arterial motives in the way. I want to be in His perfect will for my life, because that's where the grace, the power and the miraculous is!
We are on week 3 out of a 12 week weaning process of this drug that I have been on. I had a set back a week ago and we had to re-evaluate the rate at which I was weaning. To be completely honest, I am so tired of being afraid of this whole process, so I am even dying to that. I was praying this morning and then opened to this scripture:
Romans 4:19 + 20, " And being not weak in faith he (Abraham) considered not his own body now dead, when he was about an hundred years old neither yet the deadness of Sarah's womb : he staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strong in faith giving Glory to God."
Abraham, considered not his own body. He ignored his flesh and stayed strong in faith, giving glory to God. And look at all that God did for Abraham and Sarah. He re-created them. They were physically and spiritually dead to themselves and God re-created them for His good pleasure, which put them in God's perfect will for their lives.
I don't want to stagger at the promise of God through unbelief. I am choosing to be strong in faith so that I can continue to give God all the glory for everything in this life. I heard something really good yesterday...it's not about what we are doing, but it's about what God is doing. It's not about us, even though it seems like it, it's ALL about Him.
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