You know what's weird?

There is something that I have been dealing with throughout this 8 year journey that I have never really put a name to. But as the Holy Spirit is operating in me stronger and stronger each day, He has put a name to it for me. CONDEMNATION. I know, why would I be feeling this? I have had a constant feeling of condemnation that some how dealing with this sickness and walking through what I have been walking through is all my fault. For a season, I thought maybe it is because of something I've done or something I haven't done. While I know it's not my fault completely, I am convinced that there is a root cause of all of this that I am responsible for seeking God about. I don't know that I am completely free of this yet but God's Word is slowly revealing to me how to be completely free from this spirit.

First, Romans 8:1 + 2, " Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death."

Okay, so the question is why do I feel condemned? I am in Christ Jesus and the law of the Spirit of life has set me free from the law of sin and death, right? Trick question, I know why I am feeling this, take a look at this next scripture:

Romans 14:23, " BUT THE MAN WHO HAS DOUBTS IS CONDEMNED IF HE EATS, BECAUSE HIS EATING IS NOT FROM FAITH; AND EVERYTHING THAT DOES NOT COME FROM FAITH IS SIN."

Well that sounds familiar...DOUBT...that same old spirit that God has been trying to get rid of in me. Disbelief that what He says will come to pass. That's why I feel condemned because I doubt. Just another layer to break through to completely eradicate this thing in my life! It's exciting to be peeled away by God like an onion. The Holy Spirit is truly helping me to get to the very root cause of all of this.

My eyes are opened to this spirit of condemnation and it's cause and I have asked God to help me to stay accountable to this word so that I can over come in this area. If you feel condemned, just know that it's not from God, it's something in us, the Word clearly states that. We all have reasons or things in our lives that cause us to doubt God's promises. But just like from yesterday's post, just like Abraham, we have to ignore our circumstances and not stagger at the promises of God through unbelief (Romans 4:19,20).

I encourage you, as I encourage myself, to stay strong in faith and give all the glory to God even when you don't feel like it. We are going to see the miraculous happen in our lives.