Just going to keep fighting...

Ok, so, 1 mri down, another one in about an hour and half and then results around 5 today for both. God's been keeping me in the fighting mode. Sickness makes me so mad and I know that's the spirit of God in me. We have determined that whatever the results may be today that we are going to keep fighting for answers for this physical body. We are gathering a hosts of counselors that we are allowing God to hand pick for us. No matter what those scans may say there is still a root to this sickness and if we can get to the root then we can cut it out from there.

Romans 11:16, (the last half really stuck out to me).."If the root is holy, so are the branches." There's a root to everything. I wouldn't say that I am a person who lives in sin or allows sin to rule my life, but I am a human being in case anyone was questioning that :). I found myself asking God to show me what the root of this sickness is. Sounds simple and I've done this before, but never been as in tune with what God is saying as much as I am now. Is it bitterness towards others, past experiences...unresolved sin? As someone who is in a relationship with God I do this on a daily basis but is there something that I have missed unintentionally that is holding me back? I just want to do my part in this. So God started revealing to me things that I have been holding on to and I just starting repenting of everything that came to my spirit.

It's been 7 years since the root of this thing started manifesting itself in my body and enough is enough...it's time for it to be completely eradicated and I just want to be open to what the Holy Spirit is saying. That's why I am staying in the Word and trying to live by the Spirit. If we are going to get answers for anything in our lives that's what we have to keep fighting for. The truth, it sets us free.

Over the last 2 weeks God has been giving me dreams. I see myself in these dreams speaking deliverance from fear and people getting healed and delivered spiritually and physically. I see myself back on the stage singing and declaring the goodness of the Lord. I know that's what's on the other side of this, I know that it's happening now even in the midst of it. I have no choice but to accept and receive that God is for me and not against me. I have never felt His love so much. I'm just...amazed.