Compelled

I would say "something" keeps compelling me to write, but I know for sure that it's the Holy Spirit who is compelling me so let's just say that. My upper body hardly wants to work today but there is so much in my spirit just pushing outward that I have to keep it in front of me.

I just read the devotion that is sent to me in my email from our church and it's just too perfect to not write about. Romans 15:13, " May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope." In our quests for answers we have a couple of mri's set up over the course of the next couple of days. My doctors all want to confirm whether or not there has been what they call a "hit" on my cervical spine so that they can either rule ms in or out and then explore from there. My main concern is not the mri, it's really quite comfy and a chance for a nap, nor is it the results as much. My main concern is that every one of my actions and responses is motivated by the power of the Holy Spirit.

The hope that the Holy Spirit keeps speaking to me is that He is the answer, He is the solution no matter what tests results come back. My spirit man can't stop saying, " I am healed, I am healed, I am strong, I am strong". I told Chad yesterday it's amazing to me how my body feels like it should be in the grave but my spirit man can still laugh and have hope that God has it. My quest to overcome fear, while still in process, is happening and unfolding right before my eyes. I can't do anything but trust that God is good and that He is carefully working this out for my good and the good of those around me. In His sovereignty, He is setting up something that is going to advance His Kingdom to a whole new level. I sense it and I know it...I am filled with hope.

There have been tears of exhaustion, tears of frustration but more than anything over this last weekend, tears of thankfulness, tears of trust, tears of joy, honestly just knowing that God is God. I refuse to believe that God intended for us to live in sickness or even die from it. I know, it's bold to say, but isn't that what God's Word tells us. Yes we live in a fallen world, but we are redeemed from the curse of the law, this world. If I keep that in front of me then I KNOW, that I will come out on the other side of this whole because I live by the Word of God and that's what it says...lol..."for the bible tells me so"! That's the only way you will hear me sing right now!

We have been so overwhelmed by those praying and helping us fight,PLEASE KEEP PRAYING! We need it and we know that one of the biggest reasons our spirits are able to operate the way that they are is because we are surrounded with God's people, fighting with us. We absolutely, cannot, under no circumstances do this without Him...it's not an option.

Jesus, thank You, thank You, thank You...we trust, we trust, we trust and You will not put us or Your name to shame.